What am I going to do with my life? Sometimes I
realize that, if I died tonight, I’d probably leave many things undone. That’s
it. This thought leaves me astonished. I suddenly realize that people often do
projects, delay things, and don’t act just because they are (wrongly) sure that
they’ll have time in the future. Take, for example, my best friend. She has
always delayed any attempt to rebuild a successful and meaningful relationship
with her cousin; she did so in the name of a presumptuous hypothesis that her
cousin wasn’t in her highest priorities. Then, suddenly, her cousin tragically
dies, being a never-forgotten 17-years-old boy who was heartbreakingly denied
of any bright future. And what is she left with? With the eternal sorrow of
never being able to clarify everything with her cousin. Is that what we are aimed
for? Should we really let our life fade away without any order? I, sincerely,
don’t think so. Even though we may know hundreds of people (but do we really
know them?), - and even though I agree with the fact that it’s impossible to
get in touch with all of them, just for saying you’ve lied to them five years
before – I personally believe that anyone of us should wonder whether the relationship
with someone else (in fact, anyone from the list of your acquaintances or
friends) is well built or, instead, based on some white lies or similar. That’s
what I mean: anyone should check, within himself, for one specific thing: transparency
in relationships. Is that impossible to achieve?
From tomorrow (you aren’t really going to die
tonight, right?), be focused on this purpose, either to reestablish older
relationships, or to safely create new ones. Call your old buddies, and fix
everything. You’ll feel better, and you may even die without regrets.
